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One of my best friends was just diagnosed with luekemia, and the doctor says it has been there long enough to be immune to chemotherapy. I cried today because I went to see her. Even though she has every right to be mad at the world and all its inhabitants, to request to be alone and cry for the rest of her life, she doesn't. She treats it like a cold and lets things unfold as they do. What really got me was how happy she was when I told her that our gymnastics team one the disctrict finals and is going to state. (She can't compete due to how it gets your blood circulating quickly - cancer cells would multipy at a higher rate.) She told me the latest news from the doctor, without ever getting teary-eyed. I started crying, ironically enough. She acted like she always would, as comforting and sweet and caring and compassionate as always, sitting there with me, feeding me tissues. It should have been the other way around.  I'm completely heartbroken because there is nothing to do except... wait. Wait for the day when fate takes her away. I'm going to miss her so much. I can't even grasp this or believe it's happening. You see commercials and donation boxes and things for stuff like this and think "That only happens to || this many people." Only when someone you love is affected do you realize how tradgic it is and how much quicker we need a cure. I won't name her name, but:
I LOVE YOU, AND CANCER CAN'T TAKE YOUR PLACE. I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU FOR WHO YOU WERE, AND STILL ARE. YOU ARE BRAVE AND SO BEAUTIFUL. I WISH IT COULD BE ME INSTEAD OF YOU.

So embrace everything, and remember the small things because they will make you happier than anything, because they are so easily forgotten, whereas the big things are not.

In Friends.